Givethanks

Clayton "SHREE HARI" Barker's GOAL: Writing Down 10,008 Appreciations by 2029

1. I am grateful that there are 58 Sikh Gurdwaras in California 
2. I am grateful that God is One
3. I am grateful for my Bear Dance brothers
4. I am grateful 50 Cent survived being shot 9 times and has helped a lot of people have jobs
5. I am grateful for Sikh Langar 
6. I am grateful that the Amritsar Sikh Gurdwara in Punjab feeds 200,000 people a day and has 3,000 dishwashers
7. I am grateful for Harbin hot springs and chanting mantras in them
8. I am grateful Shree Maa is adept at silence 
9. I am grateful for Dr. Paul True and his accepting what is
10. I am grateful to bow down to God on my knees often and do full body prostrations with my head on the ground to keep my self-conceited haughty fickle nature down and dissolving into the ocean of divine love like a salt doll at sea dropped off a sailing loop by a seasoned mariner
11. i am grateful to attend the 2am wahe guru simran here at the Tracy Sikh Gurdwara Prakash and amazed by their 2am to 7am daily meditation schedule 
12. I am grateful Sikhs are so amazing at serving Langar food to so many people 
13. I am grateful Guru Nanak Dev is one of my many spiritual fathers
14. i am grateful I chanted over 200,000 mantras inside Siskiyou County jail 
15. I am grateful I sang many many Bear Dance songs inside Siskiyou County jail and made Indigenous Men cry from the healing vibrations of brotherly love
16. i am grateful for my beloved 24 gurus in the lineage of Avadhuta Dattatreya, the 2nd Sat Guru after Lord Shiv
17. I am grateful for the constant love of Mother Earth and Mother Africa
18. i am grateful I have renounced the Hindu caste system and have made up my own religion called "Out of The Boxism"
19. I am grateful that my meditation goals help me overcome conflict
20. I am grateful I can change my attitude and start over any time I want and pick myself up and dust myself off anytime I want
21. I am grateful I feel fresh after staying up for a 2am meditation on Wahe guru with my Sikh family at Tracy Gurdwara
22. i am grateful I am also trained in Gandhian Nonviolence activism and I am versatile between war tactics and peace tactics
23. i am grateful for my Nihang Singh Sikh Kanga for honor and protection 
24. I am grateful the Sikhs taught me to carry a knife in my pocket to prevent sexual violence in the community 
25. I am grateful to prayer, chant, cold plunge, and exercise by Swami's Beach at Yogananda's Self Realization Fellowship in Encinitas, CA
26. Grateful for Raw Salmon
27. I am grateful for morning sun rays
28. i am grateful Jesus saved me when I tried to strangle myself 6 times 
29. I am grateful I pray to be divorced from self pity, dishonesty, and self seeking
30. i am grateful for baby Bannanas
31. i am grateful for reggae mantra music
32. i am grateful to have a pillow
33. i am grateful to shower whenever I want
34. i I am grateful that some things just don't work out too good and some doors close
35. I am grateful to challenge the caste system of Hinduism 
36. i am grateful that some prayers just don't get answered 
37. I am grateful for all wealth and prosperity to serve God
38. i am grateful for beach showers
39. I am grateful for ocean cold plunges
40. i am grateful my emails are evolving into blogs, podcasts, books, standup comedy writing, tv shows, and movies
41. i am grateful my soul lives all over the universe 
42. i am grateful I got to worship and pray at the Rock Church today in San Diego and listen to a familiar message from Pastor Miles
43. I am grateful I got to go pray and make an offering to Avadhuta Dattatreya today at the Shirdi Sai Baba Cultural Center in Miramar today and perform mantra japa
44. I am grateful I got to go meditate at the Temple of Joy in Encinitas, CA today and perform mantra japa and offer rose petals to the Divine Mothers in the form of Durga, Kali, and Saraswati as well as Shiv, Neem Karoli Baba, Yogananda, Babaji, Krishna, Jesus, Ganapati, Vishnu, and Hanuman
45. I am grateful I am Divine Light, at my core
46. I am grateful there are lots of ways to reach self realization 
47. i am grateful I am fighting to stop the dharma battle with the Hindus over the sexual misconduct that goes on at their ashrams
48. i am grateful to be sober today 
49. I am grateful I gave up the single monk path to become a Spiritual King Householder Servant of Community
50. i am grateful god is in charge and we have free will
51. i am grateful I fight hard for social justice 
52. I am grateful to eat pizza and think of god
53. i am grateful I am careful for what i say to certain people
54. i am grateful I am very authentic about my feelings and needs so I don't get stuck in repression
55. i am grateful to have new dress clothes for job interviews 
56. I am grateful to paddle around on the surfboard today around sunset and feel Mother Ocean's yin energy overpower my being
57. i am grateful to have a positive job interview with a company selling windows and paint coating and I learned a lot about how the remodeling industry works in CA and how people can get tax credits to pay for remodels
58. i am grateful I supported a friend today who got into a terrible car accident 
59. i am grateful to be aware that i need a new firm resolution in my life 
60. i am grateful I can get over hard things from the past
61. i am grateful to stop and rest today when i felt angry, lonely, and tired to HALT
62. i am grateful for the few material possessions that i have
63. i am grateful to have a van 
64. i am grateful to have a father who keeps his promises
65. i am grateful to let go of unhealthy situations
66. i am grateful to be back in touch with my Bear Dance family community 
67. I am grateful to make a Interbeing Coaching feedback form to welcome constructive criticism and appreciation on my website
68. I am grateful to watch some funny Mike Epps comedy tonight
69. I am grateful to have visited the Temple of Joy in Encinitas today to chant some Babaji and Krishna mantras
70. I am grateful to watch some great Nihang Singh Sikh music videos today about the Kirpan and Weapons to prevent sexual violence
71. I am grateful to have a bunch of new Shirdi Sai Baba pictures from the Temple the other day
72. I am grateful I have been getting to know Swami Vishwananda's website and YouTube channel
73. I am grateful I wrote down a list of my writing goals
74. I am grateful I put my Sobriety first
75. I am grateful I met a new Surfer Brother named Manamo today who gave me some teachings and we had a good spiritual discussion too
76. I am grateful I am focused on surrendering drama, fickleness, self-conceit, and haughtiness the last 20 years 
77. I am grateful I have an invite to a Sober Thanksgiving Potluck in Encinitas
78. I am grateful for the breath and doing mental mantras with the in breath and the out breath
79. I am grateful to reunite with my bro Eliot from the San Pasqual Tribe who I met at the Bear Dance out at the Pala Rez
80. I am grateful the Inner Divine Mother gives me love
81. I am grateful for the humility and bhakti of my surfer bro Swami Shri Dhar
82. I am grateful for the unconditional acceptance of my bhakti comedy brother Swami Adaityananda
83. I am grateful that when it comes to great Authors, its not the quantity, its the quality
84. I am grateful for a good quesadilla with Avacado Salsa
85. I am grateful for how tired I have been feeling at night and being able to go to sleep earlier than usual
86. I am grateful I took a cold plunge at Moon Light Beach today
87. I am grateful I chanted 1000 Guru, Krishna, Babaji mantras at Moon Light Beach today
88. I am grateful I have been speaking in Wintu to the Native American spirits of the land and making morning cedar offerings with prayers
89. I am grateful for the Heart Light within me
90. I am grateful people give me feedback so that I can learn and grow
91. I am grateful for all my Sober friends
92. I am grateful I give food, clothes, tents, blankets to the homeless whenever I can
93. I am grateful God speaks through people to try to get me to improve my writing and its outlets
94. I am grateful that I won't put up with name calling, physical violence, sexual abuse, and corruption from Hindu Swamis and Sat Gurus or anyone
95. I am grateful for all my Native American Bear Dance Elders
96. I am grateful I am working hard for years to cultivate a lot of gratitude
97. i am grateful I listened to a Billy Graham sermon about silence
98. i am grateful for a beautiful Thanksgiving holiday in Encinitas 
99. i am grateful I am watching documentaries about jail and prisons so I can learn how to be a better volunteer to help relieve the suffering of incarcerated people 
100. I am grateful I have the non-fickle strength to go by Shree Hari which is a tough difficult path fighting dharma battles no one wants to fight and pointing out things that need to be said that nobody wants to say
101. i am grateful for my having been sleeping on the ground for 10 years, cleaning the poop/blood/urine of 500+ elders in 8 hospitals, 24 years of handyman labor grunt work, years of being a compost toilet manager having poop urine buckets splash on my arms, 12 years of being a janitor for Amma/Shree Maa choosing the lowest job I could, 14 years of volunteering in 10 jails/prisons, 40 years of volunteering at homeless feeding projects and kitchens, 43 years of sorting recycling/garbage, 5 months of meditation sitting in and face down in full body prostration at Amma's cremation pit in Amritapuri, 8 months of incarceration for militant social justice dharma war purposes, being punched in the face by 4 major women in my life, 2 and a half years of being homeless in a van, 7 years just having 2 bags of material possessions 
102. I am grateful I work hard to dissolve Hindu Caste Systems even though I am really disliked by some people 
103. I am grateful I have 8 billion friends and family on earth even if some of them hate me and dislike me
104. i am grateful I'd rather be authentic than liked/loved
105. i am grateful I survived six suicide attempts at strangling myself in jail and Isha Nath (Jesus) saved me and I pray to love myself everyday now
106. I am grateful to visit the Poway Sikh Temple again for japa, langar, and seva to help build our new Gurdwara
107. I am grateful I led a Native American Bear Healing song and played drums for the Hanuman Chalisas at the Temple of Joy Ananda Encinitas Satsang today
108. I am grateful for a solid nap today
109. I am grateful I incarcerated my cell phone and my laptop in my storage unit for 48 hours this weekend to go deep inside, enjoy nature, journal, rest and feel what I am feeling 
110. I am grateful for my new beard trimmers 
111. I am grateful to keep educating myself about prisons, hip hop, and Yogic teachings 
112. I am grateful for all the Neem Karoli Baba fiends that I have
113. I am grateful to listen to recent talks from my American Indian Movement elder Uncle Leonard Peltier 
114. I am grateful I work hard to dissolve the Hindu Caste System in USA
115. I am grateful I work hard to educate Hindus about Indigenous Peoples
116. I am grateful I work hard to build restoration justice systems at Hindu Temples even though swamis and Sat gurus are very stubborn with their book agendas
117. i am grateful god understands me
118. i am grateful I chose not to get physically gangsta after some perverts in the Hindu religion lineage touched my genitals without my consent 
119. I am grateful I still chant some mantras to the Hindu Goddesses
120. i am grateful I've found out that God is capable of creating healing circumstances in my life
121. i am grateful I listened to healing Turkish music from my culture today 
122. I am grateful I am in touch with a Publishing Company 
123. I am grateful I bought the book called the Artist Way today to increase my creative writing 
124. I am grateful I never bought a gun to shoot my mouth, face, brains, and heart out as I've contemplated before
125. i am grateful I've found out that my 17 years of training with the Hindu Divine Mothers was worth it
126. i am grateful I've faith that God and my 24 Sat Gurus will spiritually save me
127. i am grateful I've found out that Amma welcomes Restorative Justice and NVC Practice Groups Her Amritapuri Ashram
128. i am grateful I am learning to be more competent at Restorative Justice and continue to attend NVC Practice Groups
129. I am grateful I am fully on the spiritual householder path now and learned a lot from 12 years being a single celibate monk
130. i am grateful to find out that I need more healing
131. i am grateful to find out that Kali does protect me
132. I am grateful that prayers take time to be answered and my heart needs to be ready to receive them
133. i am grateful 988 has saved the lives of many people and prevented many suicides, including mine
134. i am grateful I've found out that Kali, Chandi, and Durga are peacemakers, but their ways are mysterious
135. I am grateful that Swami Ambikananda is loyal to Swami Bhajanananda
136. i am grateful that I am working on being a better friend
137. I am grateful Hindus are learning more about dialogue, empathy, and restorative justice
138. I am grateful that I know how to dissolve enemy images
139. I am grateful I learn from my mistakes
140. I am grateful I am learning to be a better and better peacemaker
141. I am grateful to play Native American Drum for Hanuman Chalisa at the Peace House in Encinitas, CA today
142. I am grateful I went to the San Diego Amma Satsang Peace House and sang a Bear Dance Healing Song for the inmates in CA corrections and also to make sure we never have a Hindu Caste System in USA
143. I am grateful to have a vegetable garden
144. I am grateful I live at the Babaji Retreat in San Marcos and have turned my space into a Heart Light Temple in honor of my 24 Sat Gurus 
145. I am grateful that the Afro Caribbean Guyanese Divine Mother has entered my life and taught me many many things
146. I am grateful I did NOT send 1 billion emails to the Hindus over the conflict around sexual batteries at their Temple
147. I am grateful for my daily sadhana chanting to Babaji, Vishwananda, Krishna, and The Shree Guru
148. I am grateful to be three years sober from ganja and microdosing on magic mushrooms
149. I am grateful to be 15 years sober from alcohol
150. I am grateful to be 22 years sober from alcohol
151. I am super grateful for my incredible love, spirituality, and compassion 
152. I am grateful to be learning a lot more about culture from Africa
153. I am grateful to hear another beautiful sermon
154. I am grateful that some of my friends and spiritual teachers weren't supposed to stay in my life
155. I am grateful to be learning how to finally just get over the sexual abuse I've received from men and learn to let go of being stuck in victim consciousness 
156. I am grateful that things did not work out with certain friends and spiritual teachers in my life, otherwise I would not have the friends and spiritual teachers that I have in my life today
157. I am grateful that I am so health conscious and know a lot about health food and herbs
158. I am grateful for my friends
159. I am grateful we went to my favorite Indian market in Miramar today and I got moong dal for kitcheri
160. I am grateful we went and heard beautiful Christian music and a great sermon at the Rock Church today
161. I am grateful I've opened up my vulnerability as a man
162. I am grateful for my karma
163. I am grateful I pray that God helps me forgive those that hurt me most 
164. I am to watch some NBA tonight 
165. I am grateful I got down on my knees and bowed down to Shird Sai Baba
166. I am grateful to meditate in Babaji Meditation Cave
167. I am grateful to meditate outside in the garden today and perform my Japa
168. I am grateful to disregard any teachings I want from Hindu Swamis who think they know everything and are entrenched in a religion that has more people stuck in Human Trafficking in their country than any other country I know of
169. I am grateful I gave my Lady a knife so She can stab anyone who tries to sexually batter Her or rape Her
170. I am grateful Shree Maa and Swami Satyananda Saraswati proved to me that they are untrustworthy friends and don't keep their promises
171. I am grateful I got 10 hours of sleep last night and went to bed at 9pm
172. I am grateful I am working on yard work and clearing out rotten nuts from under the walnut tree
173. I am grateful for all the NBA Sports Commentary shows
174. I am grateful I have been learning to fully express my anger to the Hindus who did nothing about the sexual batteries I received from men at their ashrams
175. I am grateful I have put Swami Satyananda Saraswati in his place, for raping and murdering my wife in the 1800's and burning down Her Blackfoot Lakota Tee Pee.
176. I am grateful be chanting in the Babaji Bear Cave this morning, doing me japa... arrr matey!
177. I am grateful I disregard any Hindu Swami's teachings that don't resonate, especially when it carries the vibration of superiority complex and fickle haughty self-conceit
178. I am grateful that Shree Maa's Lila has really fucked me up in the head
179. I am grateful that the Goddess Lalita really creates a lot of upheaval in the mind
180. I am grateful for Cardamom on yogurt
181. I am grateful that Amma and Shree Maa feel really proud and happy about my getting ego wounded at their Ashram Battlefields and grateful to find out that Amma and Shree Maa aren't healing and unconditionally Divine Mothers at all, unfortunately
182. I am grateful that I am standing up against the Hindu Justice System and the sexual batteries I received at Hindu Ashrams that Amma and Shree Maa guilt to me that are my karma
183. I am grateful to make a lot of mistakes and keep learning from them
184. I am grateful to breathe
185. I am grateful to have 9,800 more appreciations to write in the next 3 years
186. I am grateful that I can be more Indigenous and spend less time on the computer
187. I am grateful I am an ego battle loser so I win
188. I am grateful I've not sent out a intimidating violent demon slayer email in the last twenty minutes 
189. I am grateful to talk with my sober brothers about life tonight
190. I am grateful to smudge the entities out of my aura on the beach
191. I am grateful that the sound of the waves is deeply nourishing and relaxing to my nervous system 
192. I am grateful that the sand is holding me beneath the feet
193. I am grateful that the role of the Spiritual Warrior Avadhuta Heyoka is a very difficult one 
194. I am grateful that there are certain battles worth fighting for in life and some are better to walk away from
195. I am grateful that people are working to end human trafficking and help the survivors 
196. I am grateful that I feel more relaxation after I connect with people I feel safe with that I can connect to
197. I am grateful for the suggested questions from Swami Satyananda Saraswati regarding conscious dating
198. I am grateful I am not in jail at the moment
199. I am grateful for the stars above the ocean
200. I am grateful I am trying to focus my writing more on this gratitude list and books even though I feel distracted and struggle to focus
201. I am grateful I haven't punished people with court retribution 
202. I am grateful for the community that I have
203. I am grateful I have not acted on physically violent images that roll through the mind when people cross me and violate me
204. I am grateful I love me even when others can't or won't 
205. I am grateful for raw salmon and raw tuna and the healthy oils in them
206. I am grateful for my many many failures
207. I am grateful to have a Free Will
208. I am grateful to notice the softness of the breath
209. I am grateful that I remember three past life deaths and the prayers I made at the end of those lives
210. I am grateful for slow dating and slow relationships 
211. I am grateful for my stubbornness in self defense to keep me safe
212. I am grateful that I have the lucky privilege to be alive during Kali Yuga and strive to live in Satya Yuga
213. I am grateful for all the basketball news as I love sports no matter how much Hindu Sat Gurus try to get me to be a monk and just read scripture 24 hours a day
214. I am grateful I rarely speak except to teach my experience 
215. I am grateful for the safe smoke wafting up into the formless ethers of the universe 
216. I am grateful I used to study incense smoke in my room as a boy to learn the lessons of form and formlessness and the impermanence transformation of the universe 
217. I am grateful to pray for Amma's and Shree Maa's lineage
218. I am grateful I've tried so many ways to overcome my anger problems from being sexual battered and physically beaten and I continue
219. I am grateful to connect with a 1-year-old child named Partha and his Mama and Papa and teach him karma yoga from Bhagavad Gita 
220. I am grateful to chant Hanuman Chalisa 11 times for Hanuman Jayanti at the Hanuman Cultural Center in Northern San Diego County
221. I am grateful I woke up and did my japa this morning 
222. I am grateful I played the drum for Hanuman Jayanti 
223. I am grateful I have messed up so many times and made so many mistakes and get to keep learning from them 
224. I am grateful to find out that I have more inner work to do, to become more selfless
225. I am grateful that I am still working on overcoming being vengeful 
226. I am grateful to find out I have more shadow work to do
227. I am grateful to watch a sermon by Bishop TD Jakes today about becoming Better instead of Bigger
228. I am grateful I went to the beach in Oceanside the other night
229. I am grateful to hang out with my Sober Fam in Oceanside the other night
230. I am grateful be working on repairing a fence, window, and security camera system in Oceanside
231. I am grateful for Kombucha and gut health
232. I am grateful I am meditating daily in the Babaji Cave here in Elfin Forest
233. I am grateful to be practicing various kinds of mantra japa
234. I am grateful I am still working out how to have a better early to sleep early to rise routine after struggling with this for over 30 years of being a Night Owl
235. I am grateful to be reading a good book about letting go of Character Defects called "Drop the Rock: The Ripple Effect"
236. I am grateful for the recent rains that we have had
237. I am grateful to have a outdoor toilet and outdoor shower which helps me be more immune to the cold
238. I am grateful for the chard, kale, zucchini, and broccoli in our vegetable garden
239. I am grateful I am setting intentions to be quiet, still, and silent on email regarding social justice battles
240. I am grateful I am practicing not talking as much this week, before the 2026 New Year's begins
241. I am grateful I am made a Financial Planning Music Video for myself to have chill fun, staying focused on goals and budgeting
242. I am grateful I had a lovely time at the Rock Church for Christmas Eve
243. I am grateful I had a nice time walking around San Elijo Hills square the other night
244. I am grateful I ask people working at Restaurants to pray over my food when cooking and serving so that they remember their higher power at work
245. I am grateful I saw a little read bird coming out of the shower this morning
246. I am grateful I stood 10 feet from a hawk on the fence here at the Babaji Retreat in Elfin Forest
247. I am grateful to watch all the ant trails beneath Babaji's picture in His Cave and thinking about them being blessed by the Mahavatar
248. I am grateful Gurunath Siddhanath gave a great spiritual talk about how the Kalki Avatar has been born in Sambalpur, Orissa and will reveal Him Self in 2032 at the age of 21
249. I am grateful that Sadhana breathes
250. I am grateful that I can't stop loving and forgiving Shree Maa and Swami Satyananda Saraswati and their lineage, no matter what happens
251. I am grateful God has given me so many Handyman projects this month
252. I am grateful I am like a Butterfly travelling between various communities and religions, spreading the Unity Consciousness
253. I am grateful to have a fridge and cupboards full of health food
254. I am grateful I am fighting off inner demons and praying to God to help me love myself so that I may better love others
255. I am grateful that life has turned out much differently than I expected
256. I am grateful to learn to think that instead of failing, I am learning
257. I am grateful I can do more to work harder to reach my full potential
258. I am grateful I have my own connection to Source now
259. I am grateful to have a simple office for writing and storing my handyman tools and snowboard
260. I am grateful to be working on a Vision Board to stay steadfast on my goals
261. I am grateful to pray to be divorced from Self Pity, Dishonesty, and Self Seeking
262. I am grateful to be cutting back on eating as much meat, in my own timing
263. I am grateful that God is the Doer of everything in my Life
264. I am grateful I start the day with Japa, a Bishop TD Jakes Sermon, Silent Meditation
265. I am grateful for the pictures of Babaji, Krishna, Jesus, and the Yogananda Lineage in my room
266. I am grateful for the picture of my 24 Sat Gurus at the bottom of this website
267. I am grateful for my love of watching Basketball
268. I am grateful to be over 15 years sober from alcohol now
269. I am grateful to be over 3 years sober from marijuana and shrooms now
270. I am grateful to be over 22 years sober from opiates and narcotics now
271. I am grateful for all the death threats and beatings that I have received
272. I am grateful that I am working on being more selfless so I can receive more blessings from God
273. I am grateful to be an ancient Spiritual being living in the world, in an ordinary life, amongst common people
274. I am grateful that God moves His instruments around like Acupuncture Needles
275. I am grateful for the Divine Mother's voice in my heart
276. I am grateful for my mood swings between Creation, Sustenance, and Destruction!!!
277. I am grateful for Salt Water on the skin
278. I am grateful for all the Aviaries here at Babaji Retreat and all the bird sounds everyday
279. I am grateful to have a Window in my room
280. I am grateful for the moments of deep serenity and deep quiet
281. I am grateful I have so many spiritual books
282. I am grateful for my malas
283. I am grateful I am alone in the crowd
284. I am grateful I am making steady progress on my gratitude writing goal
285. I am grateful I have a solid clear budget lined out so I know exactly what I am facing in the financial domain
286. I am grateful for all the bad and good karma that will come back to me in the future
287. i am grateful to listen to some positive Christian Rock on KLOVE before bed
288. i am grateful I went to the Sikh Temple this weekend for Darshan, Mantra Japa, and Langar this weekend
289. i am grateful I've been organizing more details of my bedroom to make it more zen, sleek, spiritual, and conducive to sleep
290. I am grateful I've been writing out some big inventories on my fears, resentments, and my character defects so I can pray to God, the ascended masters, the arch angels, and my 24 Spiritual Masters to remove my all my shortcomings 
291. I am grateful I've been researching what is the best gym for me to join where I can chant mantras and lift weights as I've learned that lifting and cardio is super good for my mental health, joy levels, emotional stability, and overall life balance and works better than a bunch of fancy Hindu rituals I think
292. I am grateful for my handyman work
293. I am grateful I have found a good gym and have been working out while chanting mantras and listening to spiritual music
294. I am grateful I have been trying to use NVC during conflict with my partner with empathy guesses and using OFNR texting if something gets a seed of being heated
295. I am grateful I did some oracle card readings on how I can approach some conflicts going on, which are natural and not dangerous
296. I am grateful to listen to some wind down sleep music before bed tonight
297. I am grateful to be reading a good book called Drop The Rock: Ripple Effect about strengthening physical and emotional sobriety on the spiritual path
298. I am grateful I got to pray with my Sikh family tonight in Escondido for the birthday of Guru Gobind Singh
299. I am grateful for a Bear Dance Family Sweat Lodge this weekend
300. I am grateful for noodle soup
301. I am grateful the Sikhs serve 200,000 people Langar Prasad at Amritsar every day, the largest free food feeding on Earth
302. I am grateful for my new Jesus and Mother Mary Candles
303. I am grateful I chanted mantras to Hip Hop Music instrumentals while working out at the gym the other day
304. I am grateful I went to a candlelight sobriety discussion meeting tonight and shared a small vulnerable victory from my heart
305. I am grateful to be surrounded by an Orchard
306. I am grateful I saw Orion's belt in the sky tonight
307. I am grateful I have been spending time with Blacks, Xicanos, Native Americans, Punjabis, South Indians, Asians and people from around the world where I live
308. I am grateful I continue to refine my plans and budget to attain my spiritual goals
309. I am grateful I am working on re-building and re-shaping myself after re-imagining who I want to be so I can have a stronger foundation to step into larger service
310. I am grateful to wake up and see the sun blazing through my window this morning
311. I am grateful for a wonderful sweat lodge yesterday with Grandpa Reuben and the San Diego County Bear Dance Family
312. I am grateful for time to go to the Escondido Gurdwara and do some Japa and take Darshan and Langar Prashad and make a new friend with Granthi Amrit
313. I am grateful I was able to get much better sleep last night and go to sleep earlier after the sweat lodge purification
314. I am grateful I failed on the path of being a Hindu Monk for various reasons
315. I am grateful to process various traumas during dream time
316. I am grateful I have laid out my goals, plans, and budget into one little music video presentation that I have made so that it is more fun to revisit than just a plane white piece of paper
317. I am grateful for the Native American Style Sense of Humor
318. I am grateful for a cold plunge in the creek in Vista, CA yesterday
319. I am grateful I drove to Vista and got to see the Pacific Ocean from 10 miles and then way off in the distance the snowy mountains up North towards Los Angeles
320. I am grateful I got a visit lined up with my Primary Care Doctor in February for a check up
321. I am grateful I am working on finding a therapist who does Internal Family Systems so that I may become more integrated
322. I am grateful I took a three day gadget fast last weekend and went to beach and temples in my van to pray and meditate 
323. I am grateful I am starting a new job in solar sales to utilize my degree in environmental studies
324. I am grateful for new clean clothes
325. I am grateful I've been singing Hanuman Chalisas for the cows
326. I am grateful I've been having some friendly dialogues with the San Diego County Sheriffs
327. I am grateful I've been watching sermons from Miles McPherson
328. I am grateful I've been writing down my worries and burdens and putting them in my god box
329. I am grateful I've been standing up to corrupt mean fickle haughty self conceited snobby Hindus and putting them in their place 
330. I am grateful my cousin found a place to leave at the Veterans Retirement Home in Washington DC 
331. I am grateful I've been going to the ER to get my thyroid and brain chemistry medication refilled
332. I am grateful I ran into my good brother at the gas station 
333. I am grateful for my shaving razor 
334. I am grateful to look up and be able to see the stars
335. I am grateful I have been talking to new friends in Phoenix and Arizona
336. I am grateful to be working for a Solar sales company
337. I am grateful for a new job selling solar panel cleaning here in Northern San Diego County
338. I am grateful for a new sobriety sponsor with 33 years clean and sober
339. I am grateful for the exciting trades at the NBA Trade Deadline 
340. I am grateful to smudge my room with sage to clean out the demons
341. I am grateful to stand up to Hegemonic Domination Colonial Divine Mother Hindu Justice Systems built on the rape and genocide of Native Americans in USA and CA
342. I am grateful for the heavy rains in San Diego this week
343. I am grateful to go to church at the Essene Retreat with my Dad this week
344. I am grateful I went to the Hanuman Temple in Miramar this week for Shivaratri
345. I am grateful to get a trauma healing massage this week to let go of suffering and relax
346. I am grateful I took a 3 day rest this week to let my nervous system decompress from the trauma of incarceration imposed by the Kamsa and Ravana demons in Shree Maa's lineage
347. I am grateful to watch some of my favorite comedians Dave Chapelle, Kevin Hart, Seinfeld, Adam Sandler, Jimmy Fallon, Conan O'Brien, and Dana Carvey
348. I am grateful for all the NBA Sports Comedy of Inside the NBA with Shaq, Chuck, Kenny, and Ernie
349. I am grateful I am studying a lot of Black History on LinkedIn for Black History Month
350. I am grateful Shree Maa & Her Lineage has been so brutal towards my ego to bring out the Full Shree Hari in me
351. I am grateful for Stevie Wonder's Superstition song
352. I am grateful I put together a 333 Playlist on Spotify this month
353. I am grateful to run and weight lift at Planet Fitness
354. I am grateful to be Self Honest that I am incompetent at Nonviolent Communication and Restorative Justice when there are sexual violations done towards me and that I lean into Hissing Rather Than Biting Communication
355. I am grateful that my feelings point towards my needs
356. I am grateful I cleaned out my inbox, sent mail, and trash to be in psychic clarity and non-attached non-complication
357. I am grateful I have not committed suicide yet, over how Shree Maa and Her Lineage of "Appear To Be Friend Sadhus" have treated me
358. I am grateful I am a total failure at building Restorative Justice Systems in Shree Maa's and Amma's Lineages
359. I am grateful I am a total failure at Hinduism and the path of the Sadhu
360. I am grateful my Background Check is all messed up due to my Militant Email Warfare to fight Hindu Demons and the colonial court police state legal system which is built on John Sutter raping 12-year-old Native American Girls
361. I am grateful I am financially poor because God does not trust me to manage His money for bigger service projects yet
362. I am grateful I can feel so sad about feeling the suffering of Native American children and people
363. I am grateful I am incompetent at peacemaking and conflict resolution
364. I am grateful for my deep suffering in jail and my Sacred Anger towards domination slavery legal systems
365. I am grateful for Poke Bowls and the healthy oils for the brain within in Salmon and cucumbers, ginger, and seaweed salad for the gut
366. I am grateful to go do mantra japa in my Bear Babaji Meditation Cave
367. I am grateful my Dad and I had a fun time watching the Killer Whale Show at Sea World in San Diego 
368. I am grateful I have so many weaknesses and things I have not mastered yet, so there is more to work on and work towards
369. I am grateful everything is so green in the winter in San Diego County
370. I am grateful that Shree Maa punishing me teaches me how to punish others but let God do it
371. I am grateful I can't but God can
372. I am grateful to always reflect on my 12 years as the lowest janitor in Shree Maa's and Amma's lineage
373. I am grateful Amma's and Shree Maa's Hindu Lineages are Anti-Nonviolent Communication, Anti-Dialogue, & Anti-Restorative Justice and are pro war, pro legal battles, pro cancel culture, pro incarceration, pro exclusion and they will get all their karma back times 10
374. I am grateful that Amma, Shree Maa, and Her Swamis are trying to ruin, destroy, kill, incarcerate, and ruin me
375. I am grateful for my Sobriety Support System Brotherhood
376. I am grateful I am getting into designing spiritual clothing
377. I am grateful to be making many new spiritual friends at the Rock Church in San Diego
378. I am grateful I talked to my bear dance chief grandpa and uncle yesterday
379. I am grateful I have been working on making a vision board out of an old surf board and painting it
380. I am grateful I have been studying Ephesians on www.bible.com thanks to my security guard N'Gai
381. I am grateful for Norm MacDonald stand up comedy
382. I am grateful to spend time in Ocean Beach this weekend working on my inventory
383. I am super grateful for drinking water
384. I am grateful for Shaq's service and humor 
385. I am grateful for fixing a bunch of pot holes on our rocky driveway 
386. I am grateful to get over 15 hours of reclining Vishnu Sadhana rest yesterday
387. I am grateful for the new Native American flute art project I've been working on
388. I am grateful I smudged my new 9 foot surfboard and prayed over it
389. I am grateful I've been working on some beading and bracelet projects
390. I am grateful I blocked Gmail and Fox News and YouTube from being accessible on my iPhone
391. I am grateful I constantly listen to Divine Mother Mantras in the chariot while driving
392. I grateful for my weekly Sobriety Meeting on the Beach at the Fire Pit
393. I am grateful for the vast blue infinity sky
394. I am grateful for Avacado vegetarian sushi rolls
395. I am grateful for Swami Shridhar's OM Circles and Kirtans
396. I am grateful to volunteer to host and serve sobriety meetings at Moonlight Beach Fire Pit for 6 months of commitment 
397. I am grateful to be volunteering with Rock Church to serve the Food Ministry and feed the poor once a week
398. i am grateful I am taking a bunch of moldy bread to serve the seagulls in Encinitas which I could not do if I was a monk living in a cave in India or some Hindu ashram where lazy sadhus smoke hella weed at the Ganga 
399. I am grateful that when I get sad I pray to Jesus to not let me wake up from sleep and then God gives me some service project to work on the next day
400. I am grateful for my new God jewelry 
401. I am grateful there is a Bear Dance Sweatlodge this weekend 
402. I am grateful a Cherokee Native American is being discussed to replace Kristi Noem as the Chief of Homeland Security 
403. I am grateful for my favorite foods: spinach, eggs, sprouts, bread and butter, avocado, guacamole, and sushi
404. i am grateful for the beautiful hills of San Diego County
405. I am grateful to be reading the Bible a lot today
406. I am grateful for my new Jesus necklace
407. I am grateful my divine father saves me
408. I am grateful for pink flowers
409. I am grateful I was able to serve for 3 days at Bear Dance in Pechanga on 3-13-26
410. I am grateful I have started new therapy with a mother named Christina from Romania to heal my trauma drama into joyful service
411. I am grateful I have been giving free Graphic Design support to my sister Rose, the Indigenous Sound Healer
412. I am grateful I have been giving free Graphic Design support to my Chamorro Aloha Ohana Aina friend Lexy, the Indigenous Hair Braider
413. I am grateful I have been locking my phone in my toolbox with my timer lock 
414. I am grateful for mantra japa on the beach today
415. I am grateful to be learning new styles of graphic design arts that includes tropical colors, water, and flowers
416. I am grateful God provided me a new chariot for all my service, prayer, and meditation activities and that it's a Hybrid Plug In to better protect the environment 
417. I am grateful for the Harmony in Health Festival out on the Pala Tribe Lands
418. I am grateful my Bear Dance brothers put me in check and asked me to become a better listener 
419. I am grateful I've been eating more Sattvic vegetarian food lately
420. I am grateful for all my beach meditations
421. I am grateful I had the online darshan of Paramahansa Vishwananda 
422. I am grateful I got to volunteer with the SD Rescue Mission to serve the homeless, recently